Highs and Lows
Being a research grad student is tough.
If we knew what it was we were doing, it would not be called research, would it? - Albert Einstein
Research is to see what everybody else has seen, and to think what no one else has thought - Albert Szent-Gyoergi
I am barely a month into this semester, and i have hit rock bottom more than i can count, ive gone to bed seeing my inadequacies and woken up regretting my decision to go into research, i have had high moments when i finally find the solution to something, or debug a code or just even little times when i understand what the hell a code is talking about.
I have felt useless and it has been alien, i have never had problems with school before, and this last month especially the last few weeks have taken me through highs and a lot of lows.
The one thing i have learnt is that as a research student you will eventually figure it out, its our job, we will probe and probe until we find a solution.
stare at that line of code or that foreign simulator until it makes sense.
and while we may drive those around us crazy with worry, and maybe even piss a few people off, when we are eventually done, the people that love us will have gone through as much stress as we did.