It's Raining In Love

Culled from  here

............. by Richard Brautigan

I don't know what it is, 

 but I distrust myself 

 when I start to like a girl 

 a lot. 

 It makes me nervous. 

 I don't say the right things 

 or perhaps I start 

 to examine, 



 what I am saying. 

 If I say, "Do you think it's going to rain?" 

 and she says, "I don't know," 

 I start thinking : Does she really like me? 

 In other words 

 I get a little creepy. 

 A friend of mine once said, 

 "It's twenty times better to be friends 

 with someone 

 than it is to be in love with them." 

 I think he's right and besides, 

 it's raining somewhere, programming flowers

 and keeping snails happy. 

 That's all taken care of. 


 if a girl likes me a lot 

 and starts getting real nervous 

 and suddenly begins asking me funny questions 

 and looks sad if I give the wrong answers 

 and she says things like, 

 "Do you think it's going to rain?" 

 and I say, "It beats me," 

 and she says, "Oh," 

 and looks a little sad 

 at the clear blue California sky, 

 I think : Thank God, it's you, baby, this time 

 instead of me.

This made me smile, the vulnerability of love, making us stupid and foolish at the same time, i know i have had my share of stupidity because i really liked a boy, i always read meaning into everything, and when he doesn't like me back as much, it hurts twice as much, i try twice as hard, till there's nothing left and i'm empty.............empty

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